Multiple Sclerosis hitting me pretty hard!!!

i'm still feeling kinda crappy. wish i could get out of this depression, ya know. it's not like anyone is reading this blog so i can pretty much say whatever the fuck i want.

my legs are starting to weaken more than they ever have before. sometimes when i get up after sitting for about 2 hours, they kinda wanna buckle up and i have to lean really hard on my walker so i don't fall. it's really scaring me because if Chuck isn't here what the hell would i do? i keep saying i'm gonna keep the walk around with me but i always forget it. DUH! i need help on pointers on how to remember the phone. LOL

my hands are also getting worse. they tingle really bad and are getting spasms more than i ever had, same with my feet. and they hurt SOOO bad. then when i take my meds like it says to take them i walk around like a fuckin zombie or sit in my chair like one. usually my head crashes down on the keyboard and i look really kewl with the imprints on my face. i used to think it was funny, but it's NOT! i'm just a fuckin mess and don't know what to do about it.

i see my Neuro Dr. next tuesday, on the 20th and have a whole page of questions written down for his ass. i need some answers to ALOT of questions. i gotta get up and try to walk around the house alittle bit. i'm starting to get alot of spasms and their one right after the other. dammit!